I am experiencing a huge amount of frustration in dance.
I may also be PMSing, but that is beside the point.
I don’t feel like I’m getting any better, and while I’m not the worst in the class at everything, most of the time I feel like I look like crap. There’s just something I’m not doing right that I really need to learn to do. I wish I knew what it was. I know when I see myself in the mirror, I don’t look as professional or as nice as the other girls, and I can’t figure out why. Are my shoulders too tense? Too relaxed, maybe? Am I arching my back? What about my arm position?
What I’m really worried about is that it’s not just one thing, it’s a ton of things, and that scares me. I know I can’t expect to be the best, but it would be really nice to at least look good.
I know I need more strength, and a ton more flexibility. I’m working on it. Justin and I need to get a gym membership here at the Sioux Valley Wellness Center. Then I can start working out a little bit, and stretching a lot. Mostly, I’d like to run and increase my stamina. I get tired too easily.
Anyways, I’m probably just bitching because I’m bitchy and there’s not a lot I can do about that. Except sleep. And take Advil.