There is so much going on inside my head right now. Just constant talking and arguing, fighting and crying.
I can’t make myself stop crying. I cry myself to sleep, I cry when I wake up. I cry when I think about being alone, and I cry when I think about being together.
It is seven in the morning, the night after Justin told me that he wants to take a break to decide if he wants to be “with” me anymore. I told him I would leave him alone, and let him have his time to decide. It has been less than 12 hours, and I’m already going crazy.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to tell anyone, but I don’t want to lie. I don’t want everyone in my office knowing what’s going on, yet I don’t want to pretend that I’m going home this weekend.
God, please let him hurry to find his answer. I can’t take the waiting. It’s a hot knife in my heart.
No one can read this but Justin, and I don’t think he knows how. This is for me. This is because I need to say it SOMEWHERE, but it can’t be to anyone.