Things feel so weird right now. On the one hand, I’m having a good time, and I like everyone that I work with, I’m so happy that I get to dance at a great studio, and I like my apartment.
On the other, I feel alone, and left alone, and bored, and forgotten. Maybe not entirely that far, but I guess I’m having issues. I think this is a lot harder on me than I thought it would be.
I was very seriously thinking about taking Friday off and driving home Thursday night as a surprise. That would have felt really good, but I ended up deciding not to because I’ve only been here just over two weeks. Forget the fact that I want to bring Molly home, she can last another week. So maybe next weekend. I’ll have to find out what the weather and roads are like. I don’t want to do anything stupid.
I heard a phrase somewhere, sounds sort of Dr.Phil’ish.
“A relationship is not over until you can walk away without feeling any emotion. Not hurt, not anger, not sadness. If you feel any of these things, whether you want it to or not, the relationship still exists.”
I’m pretty sure you guys will know who that is directed towards. Take it whatever way you like, but I want you to know that I am here for you.