I worked out early this morning, and got home with too much time before work, so I guess I’ll fill it by writing a post.
People have told me lately that I have been “back to myself” again. On Wednesday, Karla said to me, “It’s wonderful to hear you laugh again, Mandy.”
I guess I didn’t realize how much people notice what you do and don’t do. I guess it’s sort of funny that I feel like things got to their worst, and people percieve that I am doing better. Or maybe I’ve just made more of an effort to stop other people from knowing what’s going on in my life. If they don’t know there’s something wrong, they wont ask questions.
I have really enjoyed working out. Even though it means I have to get up at 4:30 to do it. The gym is almost empty, I can have just about any machine or cardio equipment that I want. I have energy for the rest of the day, and I’m not giving up time that I would want to spend on anything else. Except sleep. I only get about 5 hours of sleep. However, I could start going to bed earlier. Right now, that is the plan. Bed earlier, gym in the morning.
We’ll see how long I can keep up going to the gym every day on a weights – cardio rotation, as well as doing five ballet classes a week. I need to get some protein, and start eating a lot more food. Hmm.
Only three months and one week left of clinicals. My god, that is frightening.