I wasn’t sure what to blog about today anyways.
I try so very hard not to hurt people. I know who I would like to have apologize to me.
I think if I had to choose, I would pick my mom, Nancy.
I’m going to start crying as I type this out. There are so many times I’ve said or done things I didn’t mean to get my way. There are so many words I should have listened to, so much advice given with love and experience that I shouldn’t have ignored.
Remember when I wanted to go on the student exchange, mom? And I told you that I was almost a woman, and you were going to have to let me go sooner or later? I’m sorry for saying that.
Remember when you told me you were worried that I was just staying with justin because I had always been with him, and I’d never had the chance to find out who Mandy really is? I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you.
Remember when I was supposed to finally be coming home? You were getting to have your little girl back again? I’m sorry some other boy stole me away again. But he’s a really great boy! I know that doesn’t make you miss me any less. He’s sorry too.
Remember when I told you, last year at Wildhorse, that I felt like you didn’t even care I was home? I’m sorry I said that. I’m sorry I made you cry. I know you love me, and miss me every day.
You are such a wonderful person, mom, and you dont deserve for anyone to ever hurt you. I’m sorry I have and I probably will again, cause i’m your daughter. But I love you, and I’m not sorry for that.