Do you ever feel like you ruin everything? Like things go well for you, and then you just frack it all up?
I feel like this all the time. What is it about me? Why can’t I keep my mouth shut? Why can’t I just not care? Am I wrong for feeling hurt or upset… or do I be true to how I feel? Be honest, and own my own feelings?
Only I can truly know how I feel about something. Only I can feel the power in my emotions, and how hurt I can hurt. How painful something can honestly be.
Is it wrong for me to just put something away and behave as though I don’t care about it just because I absolutely can’t stand it when he’s mad at me?
I hate myself for doing that.