I can’t do anything right.
I hate saying this, but I’m so tired of being a mom right now. Ronan is getting on every single one of my nerves, and I have NO patience for him. I can’t put him to sleep, no matter how hard I try. I just keep getting more frustrated, and more frustrated until I have to call Brock in and get HIM to put Ronan down for a nap.
He’s being so… annoying. He keeps pinching the hell out of me. My whole chest and arms are covered in pinch marks. He grabs a WHOLE fist full of flesh, and squeezes as hard as he can. If I pull his hand away or tell him no, he gets MADDER and does it again. Or he pulls my hair. As hard as he can, reaches up, grabs a whole handful and yanks faster than I have the chance to stop him. He kicks me in the stomach so hard I start to feel sick. And by this point, I just want nothing to do with him. I don’t care if he sleeps, cries, or stays awake until New Years, I just don’t want to have to look at him.
Shit. Is this normal? I just want to cry. I don’t want to look at him.