What’s my problem lately?
It’s been a fleabaggin’ week or more since I’ve written something real. Not just found an old blog, or pictures or videos. Not that I feel guilty or ashamed of those things. I just seem to have lost my writing bug.
I have been having a harder and harder time with Ronan lately. Everything makes him throw a fit. He doesn’t ever want to sit and quietly play like he used to. His idea of quietly playing is now only quietly destroying something, or loudly getting into something he shouldn’t be. I’ve said it for a few weeks now, but I feel like the terrible twos have started already.
I feel like he’s constantly testing me. He already knows what the boundaries are, and what isn’t okay – so he’s testing to see how firmly they stick. Today, he spent a good part of his morning hiding from me long enough to dump out his sippy cup. When I caught him, he took it somewhere else to try again.
I try to be patient and calm. I try to explain to him that we don’t pour milk on the floor, while I calmly take away his sippy cup. I try to be stoic as I watch him scream and stomp his feet and squeal in anger. But honestly, with each passing fit it’s hard to stay as calm as I was before. I find myself hoping this is just a phase, and he’ll get through it. That some day soon we’ll go back to being calm, quiet, and sweet.
I remember the stories my mother in law has told me about my husband, and how he was a ‘terrible two’ for nearly 4 years. I watch as my son screams because he has the dogs favorite tug toy, and Flint keeps trying to get it back from him. I sit back and sigh.
I guess this is my life now.
I think it’s time to increase the amount of ‘mommy time’ I get.