Misery.

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I know.

Three days after Christmas, and I still haven’t posted a Christmas post.

No pictures, no stories, no nothing.

Color me a shitty blogger.

Here’s the thing.  I’ve been talking for weeks, months even, about how much I’ve enjoyed being pregnant.  I have reveled in this gestation, and tried to live each moment to the fullest.  I have been so thankful for this baby in my belly, and everything to do with her.  I have taken the bad summarily with the good, and been thankful for the crappiness as well.

Until this weekend.

This weekend, I hit a shit-brick wall.  I got sick with a cold.  I have had NON-STOP heartburn.  The only thing I can take that actually cures the heartburn gives me diarrhea.  Also?  The hemorrhoids I have been dealing with for nearly two years now have reached newly epic proportions, and the diarrhea doesn’t help.  My cold?  I cough.  And cough.  And cough.  I have coughed to the point where I feel like I’m going to bust open.  My ribs hurt.  My abs (what there is of them) hurt.  My throat hurts so bad I can’t swallow; I can hardly speak.  I cough myself awake, and I can’t fall back asleep.  I wake Brock up, so I get up.  I haven’t slept more than a handful of hours, and I’m exhausted.

In a matter of three days, I have gone from complete serenity to utter misery.  I hope I can get past this and enjoy the rest of my pregnancy with the grace I knew earlier.  I don’t want to take any moments for granted.  I don’t want to wish this away.

But right now, I don’t want to be sick or pregnant any more.  I don’t want to write about Christmas.  I want to whine.

So there.

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I am 33 weeks and 4 days pregnant, with 6 weeks and 3 days to go.

  • http://inthesesmallmoments.com Nichole

    Oh, Sweetie, I so understand. By the time I reached the
    point you’re at in each of my pregnancies, I was certain that I was
    going to die from the horrible heartburn. One night I coughed so
    bad in bed that I threw up everywhere. It was so torturous. You
    know what? You are SO allowed to whine. And when you’re done
    whining? Whine some more for good measure. Much love to you…I’m
    hoping that things improve soon. :)

  • http://www.alotofloves.com Marilyn @ A Lot of Loves

    Sorry to hear that it all got to the suck stage. I hope it
    gets better for you too.
    Marilyn @ A Lot of Loves´s last [type] ..Rubber Boots and Tutus- Wednesday of Few Words

  • http://www.naptimemomtog.com Sarah

    Aww! So sorry hope you feel better soon. :(

  • http://janusfiles.xanga.com Janus

    Okay, you’re a shitty blogger. :)

    (Sorry about that, Mandy, but by now you should know better than to give me an opening like that.)

    Sorry to hear that you’re feeling so lousy. And there’s probably not a lot of medications you can take at the moment because of the effect on the baby, right? Hope you’re feeling better soon.

    All Will Be Well — and that had better include you in very short order.
    Janus´s last [type] ..Youre A Sandwich- Mr Grinch

  • Jackie

    you will get through this! I had a wicked cold in my first weeks of being pregnant, and let me tell you, I don’t take being sick without cold medication very well AT ALL. I was satan incarnate! As soon as the cold starts to clear up, you won’t feel so bad, I just know it. You’re such a positive loving person, but I also know that everyone has their breaking point. Don’t feel guilty, don’t feel bad. Remind me of these things when I hit my wall. *hugs*

  • http://www.tempestbeauty.com Mandy

    Thanks Jackie <3 Once I get passed this cold, I've got it in the bag… and don't you worry! I've got your back!

  • http://www.tempestbeauty.com Mandy

    Thanks Janus. :)

  • http://www.tempestbeauty.com Mandy

    Sorry for the delayed reply… but thank you.

    You pretty much made my whole week, and I love you for it. <3

  • http://janusfiles.xanga.com Janus

    Aren’t you a little off on your math? I thought human gestation was 36 weeks, not 40.

    And it looks like you’ve managed to retain some of your sense of humor, if you can handle me acting like a cross between Saint Walker and Groucho Marx. (Or would Paul Lynde be a better choice?)
    Janus´s last [type] ..FoodQuest 2011

  • http://www.tempestbeauty.com Mandy

    Human gestation is between 37 and 42 weeks, with an average of 40. 37 weeks is considered “full term” but any time after that is normal. Most doctors offices wont let you go past 42 weeks, but it’s not unheard of. :)