This Is My Life.

Once again, I’ve had one of those thoughts.

You know the one… it sticks in your head, all day every day.  Every time I have an idle moment, and nothing to think about, my thoughts go back there.  I find my inner monologue running it over and over.

And then I don’t really quite know how to write about it, except to say: this is it.

This is my life.

What do I mean?

You know the feeling, I’m sure.  You feel like you have no energy, and nothing is quite the way you want it to be.  You sit back, waiting for the universe to right itself, and make things better than they were before.  Maybe a different job?  Maybe a cleaner house?  Maybe the ability to buy something that you’ve really wanted for a long time?  That vacation you’ve been planning for ages.  The birth of the child in your tummy.

Always waiting.  Always looking forward to something else, trying to figure out what you need to do to make things better in the mean time.

I have lived like this for so long… I’m starting to realize – this is it!

It doesn’t magically get better.  Nothing is going to suddenly shift and look rose colored.  My life is my life, and I’m the one that needs to take control of what is or isn’t happening.  If I want it to happen…I need to MAKE it happen.  Sitting back and waiting for more energy or more motivation isn’t going to get it done.  As a matter of fact, it gets NOTHING done.

Those people out there that always seem so on top of things, and always seem like they are so productive and amazing?  They’ve taken control of their lives, ownership of their actions, and made every day count.

I want to start making every single day count.  Every single moment.  Even this one – right now.

Because this is MY life!

  • http://geraldwitt.wordpress.com Gerald

    Good points. The thoughts fit well with my own 2011 initiative: Grab life by the balls.

    … which dovetails well with the remaining days of the 2010 project: Do stuff.

  • http://inthesesmallmoments.com Nichole

    For me, the key to being happy has been to ask myself if I’m discontent because I’m truly lacking something or because I’m overlooking some of the things that I already have. Sometimes it’s the former and sometimes the latter.

    Does that make sense?

    You’re a smart cookie…you’ll figure out exactly what you need to find balance and happiness. 😉

  • http://janusfiles.xanga.com Janus

    To borrow a few words from Bon Jovi, “It’s my life; my heart is like an open highway. Like Frankie said, I did it my way. I just want to live while I’m alive. It’s my life.”
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  • http://www.lovingmylifeblog.com Sarah

    I love this. Great post and so true.
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  • http://www.aPearantlysew.blogspot.com Alison

    This is my first time visiting your blog. I read this post and felt as though someone took what I have been feeling and put it into words. Thank you for the reminder that life is what we make it. Glad to have found your blog!

  • http://www.mybottlesup.com nic @mybottlesup

    hell yes!

    you deserve it.