(Go back to the first one.) We had a baby girl. She was so sweet and delightful and tiny. She blinked sweetly and yawned sweetly and made sweet little squeaky noises. From the instant we knew her, she was little and delicate and feminine. I knew I wanted to call her Ruby. She was a Ruby! Brock wasn’t so sure,… Read More
History of Me: Part Twenty-Two
If you are new to this series, you can go back and read from the beginning here. I didn’t believe it was truly labor. It couldn’t possibly be. Ronan was an induction, so I hadn’t experienced the onset of active labor before, but surely it didn’t feel like that. Like a tightening that reached all the way up to… Read More
History of Me: Part Nineteen
Go back and read the first one. Weeks passed by. Brock and I were pregnant with our second child that appeared to be sticking around. We decided not to find out the gender, and I committed to not doing any more ultrasounds on myself, so I couldn’t accidentally find out. I started doing some research on my birth choices…… Read More
History of Me: Part Eighteen
If you are just joining us: Part One. Ronan was my first of SO MANY things. I learned many of my parenting lessons at his expense. Breastfeeding him well, however, was one of my proudest achievements. I had always known that I wanted to breastfeed a child – from the moment that I learned that the lumpy disks on… Read More
History of Me: Part Seventeen
I feel like this is getting a little ridiculous. Seventeen parts? Start at Part One if you’ve just decided to join. Aching loneliness. Crushing love. I find it humorous that I have such detailed and clear memories of my life before children, and yet the days with newborn and infant Ronan are such a blur. I remember the day that… Read More
History of Me: Part Sixteen
Start at part one. Life with a newborn was exactly as wonderful as I had expected… … and absolutely nothing like I had expected. I had dreamed of being a mother for so long. For many nights, as I lay falling asleep, I would imagine the process of getting pregnant, enjoying my pregnancy, birthing my child, and then raising… Read More