Start at the beginning. Ruby and I flew to Albany. We met with Doctor Kotlow, who was incredibly warm and welcoming. He said that my story was the same story he’d heard hundreds of times over. There is something wrong with my baby, and no one can figure out what it is. He did a quick evaluation on Ruby’s… Read More
History of Me: Part Twenty-Three
(Go back to the first one.) We had a baby girl. She was so sweet and delightful and tiny. She blinked sweetly and yawned sweetly and made sweet little squeaky noises. From the instant we knew her, she was little and delicate and feminine. I knew I wanted to call her Ruby. She was a Ruby! Brock wasn’t so sure,… Read More
History of Me: Part Twenty-Two
If you are new to this series, you can go back and read from the beginning here. I didn’t believe it was truly labor. It couldn’t possibly be. Ronan was an induction, so I hadn’t experienced the onset of active labor before, but surely it didn’t feel like that. Like a tightening that reached all the way up to… Read More
History of Me: Part Twenty-One
Begin with the first. I was at the top of the stairs with Ronan. I said something like, “Come on, buddy, let’s go down…” I felt my foot slip. My heel, too close to the edge of the step, didn’t grip. The world fell out from under me, and I was falling, arms thrown akimbo trying to grasp something, anything…. Read More
History of Me: Part Twenty
The first one. There were lots more “firsts” with Ronan while I was pregnant with Ruby. His first cold, and our first week without Brock home. First boo-boos, first time peeing outside, first major temper tantrum. We started getting concerned about Ronan’s language development around 18 months old, when we recognized (after a visit from my mom and dad) that… Read More
History of Me: Part Nineteen
Go back and read the first one. Weeks passed by. Brock and I were pregnant with our second child that appeared to be sticking around. We decided not to find out the gender, and I committed to not doing any more ultrasounds on myself, so I couldn’t accidentally find out. I started doing some research on my birth choices…… Read More