Start at the beginning. Ryder got sick. Not a little sick, but significantly so. High fever, double ear infection, unable to breathe through anything but his mouth. He was sad and miserable, but more importantly he was too sick to undergo general anesthesia. I was devastated when I called to reschedule his surgery date. He had to wait ANOTHER whole… Read More
History of Me: Part Twenty-Nine
Start with the first one. These are getting harder to write. I’m not entirely sure why. I think it’s a combination of less time having passed since I was actually living it, so the feelings are still raw, and that the stories are less “gelled”. I also think that it’s getting closer and closer to when Rory died, and… Read More
History of Me: Part Twenty-Eight
Read from the beginning. I went into a dark place. Ronan was in preschool and had therapy in Mooresville, and we lived in North Charlotte. With good traffic, it was a 20 minute drive. With typical traffic it could be as much as 45 minutes… and Ryder was a car-seat screamer. From buckle-in to buckle-out, he screamed. NOTHING made… Read More
History of me: Part Twenty-Seven
Start with the first one: Alright. So let me bring this all together in a rundown. Brock and I were still together, attending marriage counseling, pregnant and planning a homebirth. Ronan was diagnosed with Childhood Apraxia of Speech and Sensory Processing Disorder. He had therapy 3x per week, speech and occupational, and was also in three year old pre-K…. Read More
Ryder Kane – The Birth
On Wednesday, November 21st, I was 40 weeks and 5 days pregnant. I was tired of being pregnant, and tired of trying to be patient, and ready to have a baby. I had been looking forward to giving birth, and SO EXCITED for so long, only to continue being pregnant. I was READY. Brock, my mom and I were all… Read More