I am experiencing a huge amount of frustration in dance.

I may also be PMSing, but that is beside the point.

 

I don’t feel like I’m getting any better, and while I’m not the worst in the class at everything, most of the time I feel like I look like crap.  There’s just something I’m not doing right that I really need to learn to do.  I wish I knew what it was.  I know when I see myself in the mirror, I don’t look as professional or as nice as the other girls, and I can’t figure out why.  Are my shoulders too tense?  Too relaxed, maybe?  Am I arching my back?  What about my arm position?

What I’m really worried about is that it’s not just one thing, it’s a ton of things, and that scares me.  I know I can’t expect to be the best, but it would be really nice to at least look good. 

I know I need more strength, and a ton more flexibility.  I’m working on it.  Justin and I need to get a gym membership here at the Sioux Valley Wellness Center.  Then I can start working out a little bit, and stretching a lot.  Mostly, I’d like to run and increase my stamina.  I get tired too easily.

Anyways, I’m probably just bitching because I’m bitchy and there’s not a lot I can do about that.  Except sleep.  And take Advil.

Goodnight!