I didn’t play WoW yesterday.  I spaced myself, and read my book, and think I had a good day because of it.

 

I’m not sure if I’m supposed to feel selfish and stupid, like he thinks I am, or if I should feel hurt and lonely, like I actually do.  I’m leaving in 13 days, and yet I am still sleeping alone because he’s not ready to come to bed when I am.  I’m still second to a good game of PvP.  And when I get upset about it, I get “Didn’t I go out with you Saturday?  And watch a movie with you on Wednesday?  When do THOSE count?” 

Well, yes, of course they count.  But in the grand scheme of things, shouldn’t I be allotted more than 2 days a week?  I mean, if I thought it would be acceptable, I would demand all seven.  I think my whole point is that from 5pm until 2-4 in the morning, it wouldn’t be hell and hurt for him to sit out and spend one or two hours with me.  But I’m sorry, that’s me not giving credit for those /other/ times we’ve spent together, and nothing is ever good enough. 

 

It honestly, seriously, makes me feel like he’s not going to miss me at all when I’m gone, because it’s not worth the time to miss me while I’m here.

 

Oh well.  I have almost 2 weeks to go.  We’ll see if things go differently when it’s only ONE week.  And then 4 days.  And then tomorrow.

 

But I’m not holding my breath.