I can’t even begin to tell you how mad I am.  I don’t bring it up because I’m too angry to get into it, and I would be too angry to let it go.

 

To make matters worse, I am insanely jealous right now.  And I do actually believe he would cover things up because he knows it would upset me. 

 

I don’t even know what to think right now.  I’m so mad I want to cry and scream and hit things. 

 

I don’t think I’ve ever been this mad, and yet I wont bring it up.  I don’t know what to do anymore.

 

EDIT:

 

Things are better.  I  am letting lonliness and emotions get the best of me, and I shouldn’t do that.  It’s time for work.  Maybe today will be a nice day.