Hurry up and wait.

Doesn’t it always feel like that’s what you’re being asked to do?  Mandy, we need you to scan a patient from the ER.  But wait for her Beta HCG results.  But hurry up, and get it done.

Today has been a really long day.  I have been nursing a bag of gummy worms since about noon.  Gummy worms are a sweet, satisfying treat.  Pair it with the bag of pretzels I have sitting next to me, and I can rebound from sweet to salty all day.  It’s magnificent. 

A fellow I work with was talking to me today about relationships.  We had gotten on the subject of infidelity, and how that affects different couples.  He said, just as he was about to get into a new relationship with his previous lady-friend, that a mutual friend gave him a piece of advice.  He was told, “Dude… if she’s gonna cheat, she’s gonna cheat.  There is nothing you can do that will change it or stop it, so just live it.”

I know he was telling me these things because of my knee-jerk reactions, my tendency to always assume the worst.  He said if I honestly thought that Brock would ever cheat on me, I wouldn’t be with him.  So deep down, I know I have nothing to worry about.  It’s just the surface fears that keep getting in the way.  And keep getting annoying.

I will agree though.  I’m not worried he’s just going to cheat on me.  He loves me, and I love him.  I, however, AM worried that he would fall out of love with me first… and THEN cheat on me.

Silly Mandy.