I’m trying to keep this rolling. I know, 30+ parts is a little ridiculous. I should be writing a book and calling them chapters. But whatever, I’m committed now. Read from the beginning here. Pregnant. Tired. Struggling. Raising a neuro-atypical six year old boy with impulse control issues, a loud and beautiful four year old girl who liked to instigate… Read More
History of Me: Part Thirty.
It’s been four months since I’ve added a part to this history. I appreciate you being the most patient readers of all time. I also apologize. It’s been uncomfortable and sad, and I’ve decided to lean into that feeling instead of avoiding it. Onwards. (If you are just joining us, start at part one here. They are a quick read.)… Read More
History of me: Part Twenty-Seven
Start with the first one: Alright. So let me bring this all together in a rundown. Brock and I were still together, attending marriage counseling, pregnant and planning a homebirth. Ronan was diagnosed with Childhood Apraxia of Speech and Sensory Processing Disorder. He had therapy 3x per week, speech and occupational, and was also in three year old pre-K…. Read More
History of Me: Part Twenty-six
Start with the first part. I only want to kiss Brock. We packed our bags, and began the journey home. I was anxious. Incredibly nervous. It had only been a few weeks, but I was going home to Brock with a willingness in my heart that I hadn’t had before. I was so scared that I would see him,… Read More
History of Me: Part Twenty-Five
Start over. Fuck. I was pregnant. Fuck, fuck, fuck. My brain started spiraling out of control. I was leaving. I wanted to leave. I was done with this marriage, done with this man. WHAT THE HELL WERE WE THINKING?? Fuck. My thought process was unhelpful. I did not want to be pregnant. I didn’t want to be a single… Read More
History of Me: Part Twenty-Four
Start at the beginning. Ruby and I flew to Albany. We met with Doctor Kotlow, who was incredibly warm and welcoming. He said that my story was the same story he’d heard hundreds of times over. There is something wrong with my baby, and no one can figure out what it is. He did a quick evaluation on Ruby’s… Read More